He looked at her with absolute wonderment while he touched her face. Her eyes, wide and innocent, beckoned him with their intensity in the soft light of the room. As he ran his fingers through her hair with soft, measured strokes he began to speak softly as if to convince himself that nobody else in the world existed at that moment.
“I want to tell you something, but I am not even sure what I want to say right now. All I know is that something is building inside of me like a torrent waiting to burst from my skin. I’ve never known what it is to be a real person until just now. It is like my entire life has been a mocking facsimile of something real and I hadn’t even realized the cruel duplicity of it all. I truly thought I knew what it was to be a man. We fight. We build. We laugh. We play. We die. Right now I know that I have never really known until I saw the truth in your eyes. I am more of man than I have ever been before when I am lying beside you.”
“When we make love, it is like I am connected to life like I never thought possible and the universe sang me a lullaby with the music rushing around me in a flood. Being inside of you is powering on a lamp that has never shone before and I find myself truly intertwined with everything, finally seeing through the darkness that has surrounded me.”
“The words I use are absolute rubbish when held against the feelings I so desperately need to describe. I know I must sound like a fool who is babbling loudly, trying to make sense and desperately wanting the world around him to understand. You are something I never counted on. Until now, I didn’t know you even existed or that I should have even been searching for you. Nothing I ever was has prepared me for what I saw this evening.”
“Growing up, I always knew my heart was this mechanical thing. It was always something that pumped blood through my body and it beat to make me animated and nothing more. Now I can see why red is the color of love because every drop of my blood is saying your name in a silent scream that my trembling body can barely contain.”
He paused and kissed her breathlessly on the lips. Softly, he pulled his head back a few inches and their lips began to pull apart, sticking for just the briefest moment before finally parting. With his hand still cupping her chin he turned her ear to his mouth and whispered to her again.
“Why is it that when I touch you, I feel cheated by every woman I’ve ever known before you? Somehow, they were supposed to be you but time and time again they let me down because they never were. I knew I loved you my entire life if I could only just meet you and see you in front of me. You are everything to me because you have taken everything I hate and destroyed it in a moment of perfect happiness and you can have it all. Everything I don’t want to be is yours and I will follow you into Hell to save my soul from the torment I’ve felt without you here. I love you, and even if one day we are fighting over who’s turn it is to do the dishes, I will always love you like I love you now.”
She looked at him and her only response was an adoring look and the grin that said she knew all of this a week before he did.
It was all he needed.
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